
Hey
It’s been a while since you saw my face
I haven’t been doing so great, so I took a little break
Some people are saying some things about me that aren’t quite true
Doesn’t matter if it’s true though
Just as long as it’s entertaining to you

Right?
Are you guys having fun?



All aboard the toxic gossip train
Chugging down the tracks of misinformation
Toxic gossip train
You got a one way ticket to manipulation station
Toxic gossip train
Tie me to the tracks and harass me for my past
These rumours look like facts if you don’t mind the gaps
I won’t survive in the crash but hey
At least you’re having fun


I’ve been sharing my life online for over 15 years
I’ve poured my heart out to you and because of that I feel
Like I’m talking to my friends
But, at the beginning of my career
I didn’t really understand that maybe there should be some boundaries there
There were times in the dms where I would overshare
Details of my life, which was really weird of me
I haven’t done that for years, you see
‘Cause I changed my behaviour, and I took accountability



But that’s not very interesting, is it?



So let’s go on the toxic gossip train
The locomotive’s fueled with hateful accusations
Toxic gossip train
Steam all over someone's reputation
Toxic gossip train
Hop on board but close your eyes
Otherwise you’ll realise
That the train is made of lies, and that person you despise
Maybe didn’t deserve to die, but hey
At least you’re having fun



I thought you wanted me to take accountability
But that’s not the point of your mob mentality is it, no
Your goal is to ruin the life of the person you despise
While you dramatise your lies and monetise their demise
Yeah, um, I feel like I can already hear the comments on this video
“She’s gaslighting, manipulting”
“Ugh, she’s a narcissist and a rat”
“I would never make a mistake like that”
Oh, I’m sorry I didn’t realise
That all of you are perfect
So please criticise me
Bring out the daggers made from your perfect past
And stap me repeatedly in my bony little back
I’m sure you’re disappointed in my shitty little song
I know you wanted me to say that I was 100% in the wrong
Well, I’m sorry, I’m not gonna take that route
Of admitting to lies and rumours that you made up for clout

Hey everybody I found someone new to harass
She did some things that I do not like in her past
So everybody gather ‘round cause we’re about to attack!
But not based on facts, oh no
Your loaded lethal weapon is your fingers on the keys
You don’t need any armour when you can hide behind a screen
So shoot me down with a click and BAM!
My reputation’s deceased

I didn’t realise it was my responsibility
To decide what was appropriate for every kid to see
I’ve always relied on parents to decide if they’re comfortable
With their families watching my YouTube videos
Or coming to my live shows
Now
Have I made some jokes in poor taste?
Yes
Have I made lots of dumb mistakes?
Yes
Am I sad that there are some fans that feel betrayed?
Yes
Was my intention to manipulate? 
No
The only thing I’ve ever groomed is my two Persian cats
I’m not a groomer, I’m just a loser
Who didn’t understand I shouldn’t respond to fans
And I’m not a predator, even though a lot of you think so
Because 5 years ago I made a fart joke


Even though this video won’t change anyone's mind about me
I still felt it was important to come on here
And defend myself a little
And take accountability



The toxic gossip train
Chugging down the tracks of misinformation
Toxic gossip train
You got a one way ticket to manipulation station
Toxic gossip train
Tie me to the tracks and harass me for my past
Rumours look like facts if you don’t mind the gaps
I won’t survive in the crash but hey
I hope you had some fun